I feel stupid. I feel naive. I feel like I should have known better. For someone who claims that love is the only place to live from, I don't even know whats real anymore. Thats what I told God. God, all I want is something thats REAL. What if I have been loving from a place thats totally fabricated and not love at all...if love really is the most powerful force that casts out all fear...what is happening now? Why? How? Shouldn't that be enough?

Vulnerability.
Jesus, this is not good for my vulnerability lesson. I'm back at ground zero and quite frankly, I have no plans of leaving.